State of the Phone Union Part 1

Now before Fall Out Boy begins to chime in, lets cover the bases:

I am a smart phone fanatic, it started way back in high school, I had the original Palm Treo, [it was a hand-me-down but soo...] Soon it grew to the first few generations of HTC's, and even the Samsung blackjack. I had quite a few blackberry's in my day. [I remember when Sprint/blackberry required a business licence for service.] Fast forward to 2010:

The smartphone market is every changing, every growing but you know that.

By the numbers:

Blackberry is the king, strong numbers, since the 90's. Not to mention when they first went "public" that made them hotter. Plus with partnerships with smaller cell carriers, they "bully" lower model cellphones.

Palm has been in the game the longest - but the only innovation they bring is a multiple application OS, which fails due to sub-par battery life.

Iphone is the bully on the block.

Droid is the next "rising" thing but it's motto is "Everything Iphone isn't I am..." pretty poor choice of words but smart.

Nokia usually has high level phones, but no carrier picks them up so they are too expensive for the casual user
HTC is playing two sides of the phone race, still using Windows Mobile, and also Droid.

Samsung is........there, 8 mp camera but lacking everywhere else.

Now, to rearrange that data into what the average Joe on up will care about:

Apple's philosophy is squeezing the most out of the least amount of power. Beautiful all things considered, plus the rest of the mobile world revolves around the keynote schedule.

Droid is flooding the market with multiple phones, from lower in [Motorola Cliq/ Samsung Behold 2] to the Big Arms [Droid,EVO] which means they should put a phone in twice as many people as any other Operation System.

Windows Mobile, [yes gasp!] Came back strong, plus the world is anticipating Windows 7 Mobile.

Blackberry, only really had one major innovation, the Storm. The fact that they picked smaller cell phone providers, while slightly upgrading current models explains why they have no over the top announcements, on the business side, smart. On the other side not flashy.

[Now...Chime Fall Out Boy]

If you can - Do

The problem with doing is you loose self...and after a while you wonder if you're using others pain and road to recovery.

I will simply reply with No.

One of the biggest things i hate is ongoing issues when the last motion was on me, and my heart falls into that category.

One of the biggest problems with the energy i bring into the room is that my own needs are left unchecked.

But as a former mentor told me, to be able to fully help others you sacrifice so much of yourself. I could lash out like i do from time to time at those who i emotionally help build up, simply because they are can not or will not help me.

I do lash out from time to time, but its usually for one of two reasons: A i am really upset with you but for some reason we arent addressing the issue or B - youre taking and taking

The key thing is you ALLOW such acts to transpire against you... so maybe i care too much.

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A glance at being nervous..my way

A poll was conducted a few years ago about public speaking. The results were many people put giving a speech infront of a crowded room scares them more than desth. That means a number of things, but one major thing is how being nervous can and will grow into something bigger.

For me, i love that feeling. i once said that "being nervous is the devil trying to convince you to give up." I feel like whatever odds that are at stake dont matter and arent  major until i get that rush.

I love it, honestly i get nervous when i dont get nervous - as random as that sounds it makes perfect sense. I ride that rush to do whatever I started out doing.

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Seagrams pursuit... [part 1]

February 23, 2010, weeks of workshops all boil down to one night. In a crowed hotel room near the heart of Atlanta, many people gather, and a lot of things comes to light. For me, it was seeing the families of the 9 other guys I had gotten to know over the course of a few weeks. Now, before we look at this day lets go back to day one.

It starts with a rainy day in December. Now I have a theory about random things when you have something important to do.. that theory is that the more something is destined for you, the more the odds will be against you. Now, that is very open to interpretation, because due to the signs being against you doing something stupid or foolish..but I am referring to the positive so..

First off, before any major interview I go to my favorite barber and get a cut THAT day (if possible) I also give myself a nice shave, well I go to my barber and he’s closed..so I try to go to his house [he told me to] but the rain picks up nasty I opt to go to the interview. I arrive 10 mins early, but about 20 minutes before another person arrives (ahhh CPT..) I’m no. 3 on the list.

In the room, in my 3 piece with a nice thick shaved beard (I joke and say I am on my way to audition for a remake of planet of the apes while looking in the mirror. ((On a random note..I got a chicks number with that line that same day!...I digress)) The first two guys go ahead of me, and more come in. I am not the worse of the bunch…but I’m not in the upper tier like I want to be. So I prepare to be interviewed and the odds are clear, out of the 100 plus that showed, only 10 will make it, and I want to be in that 10.

On the phone, l was getting me some form of good words, though I was still nervous. (*) The interesting thing is that they sent last year’s winner to sort of poll the people in the room, I don’t fall for it..while some of the other guys flock over begging for hints. As my name is called I smile and “chuck the deuces” while walking into the hallway. My mentor, who has recommend me every step of the way reminds me that I have a mini fro, and a full beard, but I can still do it, and half of those dudes in the room can’t equal up to half of what I can do. I simply smile before getting rushed into the board room.

Out of the 19 seated, including 4 celebrities and the 4 core people I have to impress, they ask me about my life up until this point. About my resume [Which includes my business I had just started, but to get a lot of nods. I stuck to the script when it comes to interviews. “Don’t answer in less than 3 word answers, control your hand movements, scan the room for eye contact, keep jokes at a minimum and safe …blah blah blah you know” Then I leave.

My first trip is to the rest room, honestly, I wish I could see their score cards of my interview..I give myself a score of 89 but… So after that I leave and have a chance to chat with the guy that interviewed after me, after a quick conversation I find out that he came from Louisiana to be with his girl. This sticks out to me because its rare that stories of love exists like this, and how at the time I would’ve became him (well partially for that matter) the interesting thing was the other 9 guys that they picked.

the future is coming

This is a very deep and interesting photo to me.

For starters, its Norman Osburn digging his hands into the back of Tony Stark inthe old iron man armor. Norman is the "future" and Tony is the "past"

How that relates to the world of the living is really interesting, as the future is being built on the back of the past. This photo is a vivid example of said idea. It makes you think who will come out next on our backs.

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Lasting impact

The past is always a very interesting thing. Next to karma and the truth, life is almost never dull. The past is the fairest of the three things i mentioned, and like the recent surge of earth-friendly ways, you have to watch your footstep, weither its carbon, emotional spiritual or otherwise. This is too much SLM sooo lets get on to the story.

I had a visit from the past, an ex (oh the joy) - now my current dating trend for some reason or another is women who want real love but doesnt appreciate it until its too late. That vs the usual pr average man walking is heaven and earth but just follow me. Its been a little over 3 years and not much has changed,

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The Soundtrack to my life....808's & Heartbreaks

Kanye West 808 and Heartbreaks

One of two really comprehensive rap albums that speak to me (young black man) about one of the biggest horrors one can endure: the death of your mother

To just give background, I come from a single parent home, but I'm last of the "it takes a village" era of children. Meaning I had aunts, grandfather, cousins and uncle who actually have morals and values vs cussing and getting drunk.

Growing up there were 3 great feelings: Victory (mainly in sports), two was being fresh (unfortunately its the only thing people glorify now) & three, the most important was being acknowledged by your parents (for me, mother) for winning. (Even though you still get love for loosing but....)

The death of my mother was the center of my world, its as if the sun burned out..and life just continues. Its only two rap artists, (it may be more but bare with me) that the deaths of their mother carried over into their music. The first, is one of my favorite rapper, Nas. His album Godson...we'll talk on that later.

But Mr.West, the entire process of his social destruction, his album, and everything that followed with the parts of his personal life that came to the light....was me.



I know I probably will never be able to thank him personally but maaaan....you have no idea. The more interesting thing about this album, much like Nas's God Son album, it doesn't make sense until you go through it. If you look up the most influential artists in history, someone came out with an album which was very emotional, it goes down as one of the most impressive albums recorded (he recorded it while looking at the person who the album was about) if you know then that's cool, but if you have no clue the artist was Marvin Gaye, the album was Here My Dear, it was to pay for his divorce. Well halfway through recording the album it got really emotional. At first, it made no sense to some, but some 10 - 20 plus years later its a classic.

To bring it back, some of the biggest problems I face is not what I've done, but what I haven't done and what I can't do.....Which makes "Street Lights" my favorite song. Its honest, apologetic, hopeful among so many emotions all in one song. The first verse, "Let me know..do I still got time to grow...things ain't always set in stone.." Its so honest and set in a different tone, much like a son would ask a mother. If I'm over your head, in some ways good, that means you haven't went through the pain in the song.

Its been said, its not about how you live, but what can you live with (yourself having done) and I'll admit that its a lot of things I haven't done that will be bittersweet when I do them cause I can't say mom..and when I get married and start a family, hearing my kids call my wife "mom" will sting a great deal as well but like all things in life bring them on..that's the only way to get over them